Fuck my face, fuck my name

i'm going to London again tommorow to see my brother, so see you all in a week :)

hope this update keeps you safe while i'm away  :)p

I really need to hear how great I am, cause I can't even get up out of bed. Now say it like you mean it. Sing it back softly, oh. You got to be strong and I've been empty oh so long.

come up to me say why are you so skinny and pretty for a boy?
said thanks for the insults and compliments
you'll never forget my face no more

And the world's got me dizzy again. You'd think after 18 years I'd be used to the spin, but it only feels worse when I stay in one place. So I'm always pacing around or walking away.

No reason to stay is a good reason to go.

I woke up with this song in my head this morning,
It made my headache,
It was that great,
But now it's gone, and life is wonderful.
You made my headache,
You were that great,
But now you're gone, and life is wonderful.

I can't hardly reach you and i know it's getting harder to be you,
so i'll be dropping you where nobody knows,
city ought to take you,
it would only take a little second to break you

There's a song stuck in my head
and I can't help singing it
Oh how I hope my singing pleases you
Cause I am not who I become
but what you made me into.

i wish i had nothing to wish for.

haylo

I want your love And I want your revenge
I want your love I don’t wanna be friends
J'veux ton amour Et je veux ton revenge
J'veux ton amour I don't wanna be friends

I know I'm on your mind with the worst intentions. I'm working up the guts to say you weren't enough. Fuck what your friends will say, I never was about you anyway.

Black tears, black smile, black credit cards and shoes; you can call all the people you want, but it's you who's being used.

I like too many things and get all confused and hung-up running from one falling
star to another till I drop. This is the night, what it does to you.
I had nothing to offer anybody except my own confusion.

I think you're beautiful but I wouldn't fuck you because when we were done, I wouldn't want you to feel fucked. I would try to make love to you and I would probably be clumsy and awkward, but when it was over, I would want you to feel loved.

you're so full of shit
at least you're honest

the kitchen is cold but the coffee is warm and the sun's
coming up. the day has just begun and you're already bored.
bored of cheering me up, bored of calming me down. bored
of drying my eyes. but there once was a time when you were
the one. you were the one, the blue of the sky. you came
after the storm. you were the switch on the wall in the
dark of the hall i'm still fumbling for.

Athazagoraphobia- Fear of being forgotten

You're the fucking best.

heylo :)

You've got nothing to say and you're saying it too loudly.

these days i feel so strange.
how strange it is to be anything at all.

we talked all night
but what the hell did we say?

One day we'll be vintage.

i remember you secretly
do you remember me secretly?

Beautiful and dirty dirty rich

You float like a feather
In a beautiful world
I wish I was special
You're so fucking special

Love and sex and TV sets, we never left my room. I used to speak of old regrets, maybe I spoke too soon. I thought that I did my best, now I know that isn't true. Cause my clothes smell like cigarettes and they used to smell like you.

I love you almost as much as zombies love brains.
Almost.

Whose gonna save my soul?

I wanna thank you Mom and Dad
For hurting me so bad
But you're the best I ever had
I wanna thank you

I don't have any friends at all
Cause I have nothin in common with you all
I don't have anything to say
I want everything to go my way
Shut up mom! It is not okay
I'm alone almost every day

He always gets so mad at things you laugh at
"Don't get so worked up," you'd say
But on the back deck you admit
That you haven't felt much like laughing lately anyway

You like it better when we're wasted cause it's less complicated. But when the drugs are gone and faded, I look at your face and hate it.

It's a sweet smile and then a denial
Hey, you are just trying to be nice

Love yourself first, please.

hey.

But just don't ask about my appetite
I didn't lose it tonight
It's been gone half my life
It's just, I
I've been eating for you

You know I'll call you eventually, when I wanna talk
till then you're invisible.

"Despite your girlfriend and the fact that I don't even like you, I like to pretend that you are desperately in love with me and struggle with it everyday."

Cause theres a switch that gets hit and it all stops making sense
And in the middle of drinks, maybe the fifth or the sixth
I'm completely alone at a table of friends
I feel nothing for them. I feel nothing, nothing

I'm thinking of quitting drinking again
I know i said that a couple times
And I'm always changing my mind, well, i guess i am
But theres this burn in my stomach and theres this pain in my side
Sometimes I pray I don't die